She had her hook in the deepest part of me

“No matter how many magazines and DVD’s I burned, no matter how many times I cried to God that I would never do it again, no matter how many computers I smashed, I always went back to porn. There was no code or password that would stop me. There was no internet filter that i could not get around. There was no vow or promise I could make that I could ever keep. I always went back to ‘her’. For about thirty six years I was a slave to this adulteress. I loved her and I hated her. I ran to it when I was bored or depressed or overworked and she gave me the ecstasy she promised, for a second or so. She eventually even took that away too. She exacted a heavy price in return, my hopes , my dreams, my very soul. Now that I have long been free and able to look back, I am amazed at the power this ‘woman’ has to enslave. She had her hook in the deepest part of me, that place that says, “try again, you can do this.” I gave up trying again. I gave up believing that i could ever change and be completely free. It took someone coming along who believed in me. No matter how many times i fell he said , “get up, you can do this with Christ strength”. Now I stand against this whore with all of heavens resources my freed soul can call upon. One of my greatest weapons that i swing with all my heart to free captive souls is encouragement. Men and women need to know that there is a way out, but you can’t do it alone. You need daily support, encouragement and mentoring and that is what we specialize in at Free Indeed”. -Ted Robinson, executive director.